So last Tuesday my psychology teacher gave my class a writing assignment, which was to write a hypothetical gratitude letter (We don’t actually have to send it) to someone important to you that changed your life and who you never formally sat down and thanked, and thanking them for everything they’ve done for you. Then he gave us five minutes to start writing the rough draft. After the five minutes were over, he basically dismissed class before warning us that, “A few of you might get a little choked up when writing your letter. That’s okay, also, you don’t have to do this, but if you want to go the extra mile, trying printing an extra copy of your letter out and reading it to the person it’s addressed to. I guarantee that if you actually put your emotions into your letter and really mean what you say, both of you will cry.” I just finished writing my letter right now…. and I’m fucking sobbing my eyes out right now! There’s no way in hell I’m gonna read this shit to the addressee! I’d probably get halfway through, before collapsing on the floor sobbing my stupid face off and passing out from lack of oxygen! They wouldn’t even know what the hell is happening and be confused at what the fuck I’m getting all emotional over! AUGH!
Man, it feels like forever since I updated this. I had the drawing of Pace done for a month now, but just really didn’t want to work on the one with Ice for some reason. So I finally sucked it up last night and finished it- even though I’m not too happy with the results. I still really like Pace’s though, he came out cute as fuck.
The palettes I’m using are from here.
God I am a wreck today…. to much emotional things are happening- I sobbed my eyes out at the newest episode of Free! and I didn’t even cry last season and it’s only episode nine. I just can’t handle Haru’s breakdown, everything is going wrong- and Souske, even though I dont like him, seriously needs to go to the hospital- fuck if he’s not careful he could have some permanent damage. And then the last episode of this season of The Walking Dead game came out and let me tell you, I broke down THREE times during that hour experience. And now I gotta go to my night class. Fuck I can’t handle this.
Excuse me as I write a self-reminder to get me to calm down. I just need this to look at for the next day or two.
You are not drawing the character incorrectly- stop freaking out. Stop trying to look up reference pictures, you’re just wasting time that you could be spending drawing, since everyone draws them differently. Their appearance varies even in the official art. Calm the fuck down and just keep drawing. It doesn’t matter that your art style makes everything look like a twelve year old girl, there are people that have drawn them looking younger and girlier than you have. Just finish the darn picture and move on.
I just started following an ask blog about one of my favorite characters where everything is the same… except that they have been magically transformed into a dorito chip. This is the best decision I’ve made all month.
me: look at this oc i have their entire arc mapped out in my head from start to finish and all their relationships planned out it’s gonna be great
anybody else: whats their name
Finally! I’m finally done! This isn’t even what I wanted to draw today! I wanted to draw something completely different, but noooooo, my hand wanted to kill itself and just- ugh. I’m so tired of this picture.
Here, enjoy a shitty doodle of some dude with feathers for hair that I dreamed about back on Monday. I hope you like him, because this is the last you’ll ever see of him, because I’m not drawing this fucker’s hair ever again. Gosh darn, I hope this nerd runs into Mikhail at some point.
You have not experienced true hell until you try to draw a person with feathers for hair. And you can’t draw feathers. And you were never good at drawing hair to start with. I’m dying.
I somehow recovered a sumo-file I deleted over a month ago and I opened it up to see what it was… and it was a rough pose of a person waving their arm around happily like a noodle and yelling “Hey you fuck!”
I’m so confused… I don’t even know who it was supposed to be.
…somethings are better left deleted…
It has become apparent to me that I have taken way too many pain killers today, because here I am, staring at basically nothing and laughing my ass off. And now im laughing even more because i made a pun that noone would even get and oh swet jesus i need to stop and go to bed holyfuck,
ButI can’t because I’m trying to draw pictures.